by Elaine Schear
36 pages (32 poems), $12
Reviewed by Mary Ellen Geer
This chapbook covers a lot of ground, as we accompany the narrator through various stages of life: growing up in cultural exile in upstate New York, coming of age, and then life as an adult—relating to aging parents, family life with a partner and children as they grow up. These experiences are common to many of us. Why should we read this book? Because of Elaine Schear’s distinctive voice—her vivid language and images, her wit, her moments of tenderness in the midst of the difficulties of family life. I especially like the way this chapbook is structured—I think the poet put a lot of thought into the sequence of the poems as the book unfolds. It feels like a journey through life, with a long prose poem at the center in which the narrator describes the final cleaning out of her parents’ house after both have died. The book has surprises as well-- unexpected changes in subject, variation in tone and imagery, alternation between poems and prose poems, all of which keep the pace of the book lively and interesting.
The biggest surprise for me was a strong prose poem that occurs just after the poems about the old age and death of the narrator’s parents and precedes the poems about her family life with her own children. This poem, titled “In War, the Dog,” is told from the point of view of a dog in four different wars spanning World War II and Iraq—a stark reminder that along with growing up and dealing with aging parents and bringing up children, war is a part of life as well. There are some powerful lines in this poem: “Once I rode in a box car. There was no room and no light” (Poland, 1942); “I was left behind when the Ba’th master went away . . . These new soldiers . . . hold me on a leash when the hooded ones stagger off the trucks. Fear is my job.” (Abu Ghraib Prison, 2005). Although at first this poem seems to stand alone in the book, after a few readings I saw many connections with the rest of the poems (there is another poem about dogs; there is a poem about 9/11).
The first poem in the book, in fact, is also about war—a vivid imagining of the narrator’s father’s experience in World War II. As Schear portrays it, he “slept in his helmet, stupefied, grit-mouthed, cold / half-dry mud advancing into his boots and pants,” and he hated everything he had to carry—his gun, knife, and shovel. But in the end, “The shovel saved him, pitched that moment at an odd angle / just behind his head. He fell into shrapnel and stone, / got dragged by the guy behind him, who he could never repay / except to dig a soldier’s tomb into sickened ground.” In the following poem, “Before she was my mother,” Schear imagines her mother’s early married life just as vividly, but with very different language:
She glowed before the clean foaming smash of Niagara
that first married summer in upstate New York,
her rounded figure dressed for the camera in mother-to-be,
glad to be pregnant but more than the baby
the belly of success, her bright open face as if to say
Look! I’ve got a man and he got me this way!
The liveliness and humor of Schear’s voice are evident in poems like this, and I like the way the narrator evokes her parents so strongly in a time before she was born. The subsequent poems in the first part of the book take us through her younger years, with her tufted poodle socks and candy cigarettes, to her awkward early teenage years (in the wonderful poem “Thirteen” she says “I’d like to not be thirteen and just / be a nice older age / like twenty-one / or a single digit / like nine”). And on to the later teenage years of summer jobs (scooping ice cream at Ho Jo’s in a summer resort), and then suddenly in the next poem she’s an adult, working as a barmaid at the The Jazz Workshop in Boston.
The poems that follow, about the narrator’s parents in their old age, have poignant details: while waiting in the hospital to see a specialist, the mother gamely puts on lipstick because her daughter has heard that elderly women get better medical care when they are wearing lipstick, “even while in their beds after surgery”; the father steals band aids from a jar while waiting for his medical appointment. After both parents have died, the narrator goes to Florida to clean out their house; this exhausting and disorienting experience is described in a prose poem, “Her Last Week in Their Paradise,” told in the third person and divided into the seven days of a week. It’s an effective poem: the prose form conveys the endless, numbing list of tasks the narrator has to deal with, one thing after another, and the third person makes it feel like a universal experience: “She is not sure where to begin: the bank, the realtors, the leaks in the sink and the roof. She needs to decide what to pack and ship. She needs to call her 92-year-old aunt. . . . The large bathroom mirror shows too much. Dark circles, lines. . . . She takes down the zippered satchel wedged into the corner of her parents’ bedroom closet. She has waited a long time for this . . . canvas bag of love letters written by her mother and father to each other when Dad was still in the army . . . their unrestrained desire. . . . She brings eighteen bags of clothes to the Goodwill, but they’re too busy to accept them. A Haitian woman approaches her on the way into the parking lot and offers to take them all. She is grateful to give them to a real person . . . She imagines skinny Haitian men wearing her father’s oversized shirts and heavy E-width shoes. . . . She finds one remaining jar of Dad’s homemade sauce in the freezer, buys the kind of spaghetti he liked, cooks it al dente the way he taught her many years ago, and sits down to eat in the stillness of her parents’ kitchen.”
The remaining poems in the book are about the narrator’s family life with her partner and children, and they are beautiful and moving (and sometimes have biting humor, as in the pantoum about same-sex marriage in Massachusetts). She describes the way her daughters change as they grow up, as in the poem “Generosity” when one of her daughters invites her mother to share her bath and have a foot massage:
Last year toy boats and farm animals
bobbed under the bathtub mirror
. . . . .
These days she reads in quiet water,
washes her hair by candlelight.
. . . . .
She invites me for a foot massage
insisting, Don’t Look! as she raises
her young body, unguarded, from
her warm water cover, even though
I’ve been there all along admiring
her steamy shrine, the shine of her.
. . . . .
She takes up the washcloth in silent concentration,
applies her favorite cinnamon soap.
She gently bathes each toe and wrinkled sole.
In the poem “Standing By” Schear portrays vividly the painful emotions that a child often has in “the middle / days of her child life,” emotions that many of us still remember all too clearly:
She is ten and
longs for the single digit
time before taunting
ruled the classroom
where she’s learning to lower
her head and risk nothing
Raw from her day
she stomps upstairs
jaw clenched against
the sour taste of seven hours
worth of unspoken words
The next poem, “Chill,” is about an older daughter:
I am lost in the unfamiliar bigness
of her ideas at fourteen,
her passion for the knife edge,
mountain climbing with backpack, bed and utensils,
outerwear and underwear strapped to her back.
She is happiest now above tree line.
The book ends with the beautiful poem “Harvest,” in which the speaker and her partner have moved beyond the bringing up of children, in a time that is compared to autumn:
. . . . .
Yes, that’s the gift of it: the giving up
into flowers, fruit, and song,
gold flotsam, chocolate branches, unchosen edibles
bolting into something tall and tough with petals.
This could be the way with us,
moving on, relieved of our birthing,
regally flapping our rusty foliage in the wind,
sending out blooms in the off hours.
That last line could be a description of this chapbook—it sends out blooms in the off hours. I’ve found that many of these poems have stayed with me.